I Don't Deserve It

I don't deserve to live.
Living amongst such beauty
Is a privilege,
Yet I don't appreciate it
Enough.
Words and actions
That cause me to
Experience happiness
Should not exist.
Put me in a
Living hell
And give away my life
To somebody
That will take good care of it.
I don't want this life anymore;
I want to live a tragedy.
I'm not a good enough person
To live a life so great
And to know such
Amazing people.
Give me what I deserve;
Death.