Stalk.

I sit here,
Waiting in the shadows.
I see you.
I watch you.
My eyes follow you closely.
And you're so unaware

Crumbling

I'm strong.
I'm stronger than this.
You can't break these walls.

We two
Lean on separate sides
Of my brick wall that is
Surrounding my mind,
My safety,
My emotions.
You're wailing your arms at it,
Punching until your knuckles bleed,
Throwing your small body at it,
Screaming until your lungs give out.
But I won't let you cross.
Harder I push,
Supporting my wall.
I stack more bricks,
I make it taller,
Thicker.
No one shall pass.

I won't grow weak.

Gritting my teeth,
Squeezing shut my eyes,
Ignoring shaking arms,
And I stand on my knees.
I'm pushing you away.

I'm no better than a child.

I'm trapped
Inside my head,
And there's no way out.

Shielded.

Sad eyes
Hidden behind
A curtain of
Soft, dark hair.

Crazy.

A war
Rages on
Inside my head.
I'm fighting
Against myself.
All is silent
But the scream,
Although
All but silence
Screams.
Silent screams
Escape closed lips.
Am I deaf?
Can't the rest of the world
Hear my cries
For help?
It's
So loud and clear
In my
Crazy head,
But
Craziness is ignored.
It doesn't exist in me,
It can't.
I can't be
Going crazy.
[I always have been.]
Help me.
I'm losing
This battle.
I give up.

Clouds...
They resemble snow.
Eye-level-
I'm a mouse
Buried deep in
The cold, fluffy
Ice.
Leap over
Snow drifts
Of foot prints...
Humans.
The world,
So big,
I cannot see an end;
White goes on,
Never ending.
Not the horizon
Can halt it.
Mountains,
These hills.
I won't make it.
A frozen ice sculpture
My body will be,
Hidden beneath
Layers of the icy fluff.
My mind becomes
A blinding white fog.
And I'll wait for
The day I melt,
My meltdown.
Come summer,
The fuzzy caterpillars
Will warm me.

An angel
Trapped
In the brightness
Of the clouds.

---

A face
Locked
In the grey storm.
Screams
Are silenced
By the wind.
Trapped
In a hurricane
Of tragedy.

I'm opening my heart,
But only for you.

Cave In.

Blinded
By the light
At the end of the tunnel.
Then it's gone...
Because I can't have it.
It's a tease,
It's a trick;
It's
Not really there,
It's not mine.
It's dark,
I'm alone.
I refuse you,
I refuse
The light.
Tears
Stream down
My face-
In my false
Reality-
Because I'm
Alone,
Even though
You're
Right
There.